COVID-19 LOCKDOWN 2020

I can’t believe how long I have been away from writing! Two years!! So much has changed!

COVID-19 LOCKDOWN 2020

The silence is deafening

But for the ringing in my head

The silence is deafening

So many people dead!

This virus is horrendous

Dreaded Covid-19

It started in Wuhan, China

No this is not a dream!

Our biggest nightmare ever

The streets are now quite bare

And everybody all around

Just sit and stare

We stare in disbelief

Of the carnage there has been

And all of this brought about

By dreaded Covid-19!

Our lives have changed forever

We must all learn from this

No touching, no hugs or handshakes

And definitely no kiss!

We all miss our families

Our friends in isolation too

I never ever thought this could happen

It’s hard to think it’s true

It’s like a horror movie

But the movie has no end

We cannot see what the future will bring

Each day getting longer and longer

On Zoom we dance and sing

People have come together

Even though apart

And the way they all have rallied

Really gets your heart!

Covid-19 – it’s still here

We are all so scared

Our future still not clear

So frightened and unprepared!

Our families all distant

Our friends are in the past

Oh my God please tell me

How long will this last?

I hate it! I miss my family

All that is so true

My family, my family

Not Covid – so not true!

We cannot be extinct!

This NOT the end

Covid is the devil

We really need a friend

But we are destroying the planet

Our fate may be set in stone

We have been destroying everything

Everything that we do not own

We need to cherish the planet

We need to take more care

Or there will be barren ground

And no one left to care!

Trish 10 April 2020

 

CHANGE IS HAPPENING NOW!

Sad times/happy times through the summer of 2018!

Well, it has certainly been a long hot, hot summer!  Many memories of 1976 when my youngest son was born.  What a happy birth that was and I am so proud of him!  I am proud of my other son, who has learning difficulties too but he and my eldest son do have a lot of struggles in life.  However, my youngest son was my ‘rock’ for many years!

Now, at last, I am losing weight! Yes and decreased my insulin for Type 2 Diabetes which is amazing.  I can’t quite believe it myself and just hope it continues as my mobility is now improving slowly too!  Hopefully, the colder weather will not exacerbate it!!

The summer has been a stressful time for our family as my youngest son and his wife have separated.  They have three children and for the most part have managed things amicably (not without it’s heartbreak of course).  Also with interference from ‘stir-mongers’ has taken its toll!  Why people have to get so spiteful I do not know.  I can only think it is because they do not have a life of their own to deal with or their life is so dull they have to spice it up by being totally hurtful to others!

My journey and that of my sons has not been easy or without its struggles and I have always felt bad about my breakdown and losing care and control of my boys.  It surely has affected their lives but for the most part we have survived.  It did affect them all but it affected my eldest son, in the worst possible way and alcohol has taken over his life.

JOURNEYING ON…

I’ve lived, I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and I’ve cried
Obstacles faced and I tried and I tried
There are no rules
There is no plan

We just have to do the best that we can!


Choices are made – they may not have been right
But I fought on with all of my might
The battle goes on but at journey’s end
Nothing can be done my friend

Be kind to others but look after yourself
For all will be lost without your health!
I neglected myself for so many years
Thinking of others and shedding more tears

At times I was selfish of that there’s no doubt
But I went out of my way to give others help
I often went that extra mile
So maybe that deserves a smile

Paul, Philip and David you were my life
I was a mother but failed as a wife!
Maybe it could have been different
We will never know

But I do try not to let my sorrow show
I am so sorry for the heartache and pain
That always and ever in my heart remain!

The years I lost without you all have been such a curse
I try and tell myself “it could’ve been worse”
But that does not diminish the pain I feel inside
There have been many days I have just wanted to hide

I wrote that several years ago and now at last, I have the chance to make it up to my youngest son by helping with my lovely grandchildren, who are a credit to their parents.  He always says he doesn’t blame me but we all missed so many years together.

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On a lighter note – Arkwright’s Club has opened again!  Albeit only at weekends but with groups on every Saturday night, I hope I can get my social life back on track!   The opening night was  brilliant and to top it all my dear friend, Nigel, was playing lead guitar that night with Kenny and the Motives.  It was great to see him again!  I have only been a couple of times so far but with a holiday planned for a ‘musical break’ with my brother I am gearing up for a lovely break that I have not had for 13 years!

There was a time at Arkwright’s when we had a group of Rock ‘n Rollers every Saturday night.  They are no longer on the scene but it was a happy time!

ROCK ‘N ROLL AT ARKWRIGHTS

Steve and Angie
Butch and Lynne
When they are around
Let the fun begin!!

They’re the ones
Who Rock n’ Roll
Dancing the night away
With heart and soul

Everybody knows them
And loves the way they dress
The girls look really gorgeous
And the boys ‘dress to impress’!!

They are really nifty movers
The girls spin round and round
And when Butch gets a going
His feet don’t touch the ground!

Every Saturday night is special
At ARKWRIGHTS
But we love it even more
When the Rock n’ Rollers
‘Get down’ on that floor!!

As long as us ‘freestylers’
Still do get the chance
To get up on the floor
And do our kind of dance!!

 We rock along together
It’s fun for one and all
So, come on everybody
Let’s ‘just have a ball!!’

(written circa 2004)

Well, the journey certainly continues with its ups’ and downs’ but there have been some good changes too and that’s what I must focus on now…onward and upwards!

 

 

 

LONELINESS

Loneliness is curable – is it?
Loneliness – the destroyer….

The following verses are how I felt when I began my rehabilitation at Spelthorne St Mary in Hertfordshire.

There are days when I still feel like this:

Sadness because one has no friends or company.
“feelings of depression and loneliness”
Isolation, friendlessness, lack of friends/companions, forsakenness, abandonment, rejection;
Unpopularity; sadness, unhappiness, forlornness, despondency; lonesomeness.

“He sought refuge in drink because of his loneliness”

This last sentence being apt as I found myself in rehabilitation with 15 other alcoholic women!  After having a complete nervous breakdown I spent 14 months in hospital for people with psychiatric disorders and was diagnosed as ‘Manic Depressive’ now called ‘Bipolar Disorder’

However, you can feel lonely when in a relationship, lonely when in a crowd.  Lonely because you don’t want rejection anymore – you don’t want to hurt anymore – you’ve lost that trust in people and it is very painful.

LONELINESS
 Loneliness is curable – is it?
Loneliness – the destroyer….

 I feel like a newcomer; Alone, Confused, Frightened
Desperately clutching at all that I have left in Cambridge – that horrible flat
But it is near my sons. I feel as though I have lost everything!
I have no enthusiasm NO CONFIDENCE and NO TRUST IN ANYBODY!
My flat is near my boys, but it is also the route to SELF-DESTRUCTION!

 I look at the photographs of my sons “my family”
It hurts so much! I HAVE LOST THEM! No matter what you say. I am
No longer MUM! It is just a word without meaning anymore.
Yes, I got what I wanted – a divorce – but at what cost?
Was it worth the pain, the hurting, and the loneliness?

Can I justify it?
I feel trapped! I don’t belong anywhere.
YES – SELF-PITY! But don’t we all feel that at times?
Especially when we’ve been let down by someone or something we had
Hoped for – or we have let someone down.
Sometimes these feelings pass and at other times, like now, it HURTS….
I just don’t know the answer….

As time went on after eight months learning more about myself and other women in a similar position, I had to go back to reality and try and build my life again.  Eventually, after many battles two of my sons did come back to live with me and my second husband.  However, my eldest son did not as he was in a relationship.

I have moved homes so many times but always kept near my son with learning disabilities, who I still support today.  I have tried to support all three sons as much as possible but there comes a point when they want to make their own way in life and you feel once again that feeling of loneliness – not being useful any longer – not feeling wanted but I will always be here for them and do my best to help and advise them, though sometimes (well, most of the time) the advice is totally ignored…I guess that’s life!

 

NOSTALGIA

Remembering days gone by. Photograph 1969 – Queen’s visit to the National Institute of Agricultural Botany (NIAB) where I started my first employment as a typist.

After a break from WordPress with more pressing family matters I have turned to a bit of nostalgia again!  I have been watching TOTP Disco days and really enjoyed it.  I have had a sift through my poems, and found the following verses.  Thankfully we are much more aware of the damage we are doing to the planet (let alone to ourselves!) but it will take years and years to aid our recovery and no doubt more problems along the way in our ever-changing view of what is good for us and what is not!  All very confusing!  The following was written in 2005:

NOW AND THEN … THEN AND NOW!

It all took time – so many years ago

Fields to plough and seeds to sow

It all took time – in days gone by

Washing to do – clothes to dry

It all took time – in bygone years

No lights just candles to allay our fears

It all took time – in days of yore

To wash the paintwork and sweep the floor

It all took time – ‘twas in the past

And oh how things were built to last!

Its all too fast – the winds of change

Massive combines to sort the grain

It’s all too fast – there’s no time now

The machine spins round – hang washing out – How?

It’s all too fast – tempest fugit

Loads of light and for a while we sit

It’s all too fast – this is the present time

All plastic now and the ‘Dyson’s divine’

It’s all too fast – what’s that you say……

“It doesn’t work? Throw it away!”

It’s the digital age and we all have PCs

Mobile phones and MP3s!

Machines now do assist us and quicken up the pace

Traffic lights and roundabouts as to work we race

Dash home for a quick ‘Micro meal’

No time to wait and no spuds to peel!

No pies to make, no pots to wash

But I ask myself – “At what cost?”

It all took time – all those years ago

But what is wrong with going slow?

No time to lose – “come on – quick smart”

But in this life I have lost heart

The nation is suffering – there is a great debate

Most of us are unfit and lots are overweight!

No – not quite all there is another view

The Supermodels oh so slim – so others do pursue

“Don’t eat this and don’t eat that”

Alcohol abolished! No sugar, salt or fat!

Why is it going so terribly wrong?

We no longer hear the songbird’s song

Where are all the butterflies, the birds and the bees?

And people shouldn’t have to fight to save the trees!

And for our children – what will there be?

Will the land still be here or will it be all sea?

A world just full of water – not a person in sight

Will all this abuse cause this to be our plight?

Trish April 2005

ANOTHER CHAPTER

A step back in time.

When I left school, aged 15 (over 50 years ago), I became a typist for the National Institute of Agricultural Botany in Cambridge and attended evening classes to improve my ‘touch typing’ skills.  From there I moved on to the Prudential Assurance Company and then went on to have my family.  I took on various roles whilst bringing up my children from cleaning to homeworking (making printed circuit boards, switches, wiring) to working in a greengrocer’s store and then, when my youngest was two years old, I began working for the Institute of Education transcribing interviews for a school Accountability Project which was very interesting.  I stayed there for several years until my ‘breakdown’ and the very harrowing break up of my 14-year marriage when a great deal of trauma was to ensue.  I was admitted to Fulbourn Hospital in Cambridge, where I stayed for about 14 months and no one thought I would recover but thankfully for my children, I did!

Unfortunately, more trauma followed when I became addicted to alcohol.  I was lost without my boys as care and control had gone to their father and he  now had a new partner.  I was devastated and did not cope at all well.  That was when alcohol played its part and in 1986 I was admitted to a rehabilitation centre in Hertfordshire.   In 1987 we had a visit from Spelthorne St Mary’s Patron, Princess Diana, which was just before I left to start a new life.  I had the privilege to sit with Princess Diana along with two of the Sisters and have a short chat.  It was a very exciting day and everyone was thrilled to meet her.

It was felt that it would be best for me to move away from Cambridge so I stayed with my mother and step-father in Gt. Yarmouth, Norfolk until I acquired a mobile home in Cobolm, Gt. Yarmouth.  I then met my second husband at a club for divorced and separated people.  Not long after we were married two of my boys came to live with us.  My eldest son now had a new family and partner and did not come back to live with me. Further trauma was in store for him and for me!  After losing my mum and a brother in 1995 I was very distressed.  However, the marriage continued until we had moved to Norwich when in 2001 the marriage ended more amicably this time and the main cause was that I had started drinking again.  So, alcohol had a part to play in that break-up.  I remember 9/11/2001 vividly.  It was the day I was on the telephone, arranging to leave my husband, when the news broke that planes had crashed in the World Trade Centre’s twin towers in New York.

On a lighter note for 20 years (or more) I worked for agencies as a temp.  My work finally brought me to Norwich and I have been happy here ever since.  One of my roles was for a restaurant dealing with menus on their website which was great but placing orders for tea, coffee, snacks/meals etc, I am afraid, was not my forte!


CONFESSIONS OF A TEMP!!! 

Oh dear! What a disaster
More problems you won’t find
Than those that were encountered
When Trish met Nelson Hind!

She started off so brilliantly
She seemed to have such flare
And even had the privilege
To use the bosses chair

She helped out on his laptop
(Now that’s a sight to see!)
And when it came to break time
She got biscuits with her tea

She impressed them with her typing
Her special menus were ‘Supreme’
But when it came to taking orders
She made them want to scream!

She had a lot of work to do
And tried her very best
But the day she missed another order
Really put them to the test!

The orders were a trial for her
And she was in the ‘Soup’
Marie had by now had enough
Trish no longer in the troupe!

No longer part of Nelson Hind
She was a lonely ‘Sole’
She was well and truly ‘battered’
And really in a hole!

She pondered on her plight
But she knew she’d had her ‘chips’
And so the only thing for her
Was to tell them that she quit

She thought of pleading with them
But knew that would be in vane
And after all the problems
They would know she was insane!

So there was nothing left
But to eat ‘humble pie’
Admit it was too much for her
And hold her head up high

Trish June 2001

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I then moved on to temp for a further few years but the following verses were whilst I was still working for the restaurant the following incident occurred:

A Day in The Life of Brian

Brian sits at his PC
In the opposite corner to me
Marie and Mark, Liz and Tim
Sat quietly working – then – “what’s that din!?”

An explosive sound from Brian’s Corner
Marie quite shocked
No time to warn her!
Our Brian is in quite a mess

He’s lost his ‘Innocence’
All over the desk!
We never realised it was so hot
And Brian was in a state of shock

But what the others couldn’t see
Was the sticky mess on Brian’s PC
He wiped as much off as he could
But it wasn’t doing any good

He had to get out of this place
And grabbed an empty sandwich case
The bubbling mass he placed inside
And waited for it to subside

Now if you want to avoid the same fate
Don’t let your YOGHURTS GO OUT OF DATE!!!!
(Use before April 2001)

Trish June 2001

 

 

LIFE GOES ON

The featured picture is my lovely Mum. Anniversary of the death of my mother and also losing one of my brothers.

The saddest year in my life was 1995 with the loss so suddenly of my mother on March 10th and in December the same year, just after Christmas, my brother left us also.  He could not bear to be without our dear Mum.  The first four verses were written some years ago.  I have added a few more today.

All Alone!

I’m feeling sad
And quite alone
Will I ever have
A happy home?

I’ve made my decision
The time has come
Oh how I wish
I still had my mum!

A mother so wise
And the truest of friends
It is so cruel
That her life had to end

It ended so quickly
In a blink she was gone
Without her I find
It so hard to be strong

But life goes on
A trial a test
I really must try
To do my best

Make the best of a bad thing
This is the way
For new life to begin
A brand-new day…

It’s 23 years since you left us Mum
The saddest day ever
Then on went your son
My brother – no never!

But alas he did go
He had to depart
Because when you left us
It had broken his heart

Time doesn’t totally heal but the pain eases.  However, always at low points in my life the pain returns.  I wonder how things would have been had I still got my mum and my brother.  Mum was always there for all of us and made so many sacrifices as most mums do.  She cared for so many people as well as her family – she was a warden in a sheltered housing complex for her last few years.  She died so quickly after her retirement and it is so very sad that she never had the full and happy retirement which she so deserved.

 

TRIBUTE TO MUM

Dealing with bereavement.

The time is drawing near to the anniversary of my mother’s death on 10th March 1995 and although I think of her often it is far more poignant now.  Mum never had an easy life either and she was the ‘glue’ that kept the family together.  I also lost one of my brothers in December 1995 – he wanted to be with mum.  It was a very traumatic part of my life and took me a long time to come to terms with.  You never get over some of the traumas in life but have to learn to deal with them and carry on.

ETERNAL LOVE
(In Loving Memory of Peggy Pettengell)

 Many times you helped me through
Only one person stood by – MUM – that was you
The strength you had and faith in me
Helped me come back to reality
Everyone else gave in, said ‘leave her there!’
Relentlessly you showed love and care

I can recall such devotion you gave

With a thankful heart – my life you saved
Illness came in many guises
Love unending you provided
Lasting through to the bitter end 

A MUM who was more than a special friend
Life will never be the same now
We continue but I just don’t know how
A void exists now in my world
You left behind your little girl
Some day we will be reunited 

Lonely hearts have been divided
Our souls will be as one someday
Voids filled – and again we’ll play
Each and everyone together

Years and years of love and pleasure
Over and over I tell myself
Undying love means more than wealth

Trish – 1995

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During my breakdown, and long after, Mum was a great support to me, along with my dear Aunt Val who still stays in contact and I am sure it was their support and faith that got me through this traumatic time.  Although I lost care and control of my sons during this breakdown, two of my sons did return to live with me when I married for the second time in 1988.  My other son had a partner and stayed in Cambridge.

It was during my recovery on release from hospital that I turned to drink which had a devastating effect on my life and is covered in my (as yet unpublished) book ‘The Adverse Effects of Alcohol’.  The following verses are an excerpt from the book:

Growing up

Laughter and tears, sadness and joy
Our life drifts along until girl meets boy
Childhood innocence fades away
Slowly, but surely day by day

Mum and Dad – safety – security
When in childhood and in purity
But as the time goes on
Security, safety and purity are gone

We know not what life holds in store
Just as well – else we’d want no more
For some, life goes by without a hitch
For others – it’s a trial – a test of wits

Our lives take many different paths
For some it is an easy task
Of course, I can only speak for me
And of other experiences that I see

I was coping, I thought, for many years
Then came about my biggest fear
A breakdown, no oil to keep me going
I’d run without any without even knowing

I‘d gone on for months without any steam
I couldn’t sleep – so I couldn’t dream
Until into a ‘Twilight World’ I went
All my energies had been spent

But what lead to this state?
Well, of course, many mistakes
Some that I could not control
Lead me to a big black hole

I hope that some will recognise
The feelings that I have inside
But also, I hope these rhymes
Help you cope with troubled times…

Trish – ‘The Adverse Effects of Alcohol’
Unpublished book – written after staying at Spelthorne St Mary in Hertfordshire

THERAPY!!

My battle with weight and now mobility as well!

Many years ago I took part in the Cambridge Grass Track Car Racing with my first husband and my two brothers.  The photograph shows me at the last time I was slimmer and healthier the next 30 years have taken their toll on me.  After having a nervous breakdown on the breakup of my first marriage and weighing just 6 stone on my return to ‘‘reality” from 14 months in hospital, my weight ballooned and I am now 16 stone!  There has been a lot of trauma in my life and unfortunately, I have let myself ‘go’!!

I have just completed my first session of hydrotherapy and feel like I have run a marathon!  It was very good and I look forward to the next session.  However, I now realise that I was ‘overdoing it’ on my trips to Riverside Leisure Centre for swimming.  I was going for an hour at a time and did far more than we did at the hydro pool today!

I have struggled with my weight for over 30 years now.  I used to be very active attending keep fit, dancing regularly every Saturday night and in the earlier years lots of ‘Disco Dancing’, swimming and badminton.  Alas, everything and slowed right down and I have come to a standstill having a Stenosis Disc in my spine and joint problems plus the nerve damage to my feet caused by Diabetes and muscle pain.  I pushed through the pain for years and when I visited a Chiropractor (not for the first time!) she told me I should have seen her 10 years ago!!  It is going to be tough but I am hoping I can get back to doing at least some of the activities of previous years!

The following verses are again from 2001 when once again I tried to lose weight:

A NEW ME ?

 Decided at last to find a new me
So off to Weight Watchers I went with glee
Many people with the same idea
Resolutions they’ve made for the new year

All us roly-polies have just one quest
To lose all that fat and look our best
We’ve tried it with friends and tried it alone
Only to find we’ve put on one more stone!

But we mean it this time, we will succeed
If all the advice we do heed
I’ve purchased a magazine and some scales
And listened to some winners tales

“Oh yes, it’s easy once you start,
And so much better for your heart!
You’ll find that you won’t feel so sleepy
The first stone you lose will be easy!”

Huh! Who are you kidding my friend
I’ve been going round the bend
Tried and tried – haven’t lost an ounce
The scales keep going up when on them I bounce!

Cup ‘a soup, Ryvita and low-fat spread
Oh I’m going off my head
On the scale I jump
Oh no! I am a larger lump!

Well this is no solution
So Weight Watchers – my New Year resolution
I mean it this time, I will win
I’m also going to the gym

We all jump up when the music begins
Warm up exercises (I could do with a gin!)
There – now I’ve let that slip
“Come on ladies jump and skip”

Well this isn’t too bad yet
But it will get worse I do suspect
“Stretch those arms – straighten those legs”
(Oh I think I need my bed!)

The perspiration begins to flow
But I’ll not let my tiredness show
My legs are aching – I start to frown
“Oh I’ll be glad when we sit down”

“Down on the floor now, ladies please”
Down I go with such ease
But getting up won’t be the same
That can be quite a strain

“Lay down now – get those backs to the floor”
Oh I don’t think I can take any more
“Raise those legs – walk in the air”
What a sight – but who cares

“Now let your legs down slowly”
Careful now – ooh her tights are holey!
She’s obviously been doing this for a while
Never mind – give her a smile

I expect mine will soon be worn in
Ah! – they’ve fallen down – “Anyone got a pin?”
Now up we get – what a strain
“Come on ladies form a chain”

Stretching and bending around the floor
“What’s the time – is there much more?”
The perspiration is getting worse
Oh, this weight is such a curse

Well thank you Weight Watchers and the Gym
I am now starving and ache in every limb!!

Well I don’t this is quite for me
I now do not feel filled with glee!
I will have to think again
This is causing too much pain!

Two of my major problems are insomnia and sleep apnea.  I am now off of the sleeping tablets I have taken for years.  Hopefully, my body will be able to regulate itself more when I increase activity and hopefully lose some weight!  Easier said than done!  However, I intend to give it a really good go this time for the sake of my family and most of all for myself to be able to enjoy life once more.  The restrictions on my mobility now are taking their toll on all aspects of my life.  The battle goes on!

 

 

SAVING THE PLANET

Cambridge – where it all began.

 Cambridge is where I was born – a small village called Girton.  The picture featured is of the River Cam.  We are now far more aware of the damage being done to our planet.  From saving trees to recycling and all the conservation efforts now and being aware of our carbon footprint.  The following verses were written in 2000-2001 (seem to have been a prolific period for my writing).

Beauty Lost Forever?

There was a time so long ago
When trees were lush and green
Flowers bloomed so beautifully
and butterflies were seen

And if you saw – then you would know
We’ve let some of that beauty go
Our world is not so very clean
Too much concrete on the scene?

Can we get it back?
Can new seeds we sow?
Together we can do it
We really have to try

We cannot on the truth sit
Or life and love will die…

We must stand together
To bring us back the beauty
Of those days gone by!

Trish – September 2001

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Treasure the Moment 

The taste of fresh rain falling
The smell of morning dew
The sight of a bright landscape
Let’s enjoy the view

The trees out in the distance
Filled with an autumn glow
All too soon they will be covered
With the first few flakes of snow

The sun glints through the branches
And a bird is flying by
Soaring beautifully, gracefully
In the morning sky

The grass is lush and green
A few flowers still in bloom
Let’s enjoy the colours
Of mother natures room

A room sometimes neglected
A room sometimes abused
Let’s treasure mother nature
Not let it be confused

Confused by human beings
Who are really not aware
Of their wonderful surroundings
And really do not care

Cherish mother nature
Listen to the pleas
Of disappearing butterflies
Birds and lonely bees

Listen to the wind
Capture the sound
Because there will just be silence
When there is barren ground!

Trish – 2000-2001

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THE RIVER OF LIFE 

Tears more tears
Years more years
I could drown in
All my fears

The sea of dreams
The lake of tears
The river of life
Takes years and years

Years to meander to its end
And on its way
NO MERCY LENDS!

Trish  – October 2000

Many poems were written by me during this period in my life – some will appear later I expect but some are far too lengthy!  After this time I divorced my second husband.  Unfortunately, as referred to in my first blog, alcohol played a part in this separation.  One day I might just be able to publish my book about my stay at Spelthorne St Mary in Hertfordshire – (‘The Adverse Effects of Alcohol’).  It may be that I am just not cut out to be in a relationship.  I still support my sons as much as possible but need to find my way in life now.  My middle son has learning difficulties and we have had many adventures moving around Cambridgeshire, Hertfordshire and Norfolk!  Hopefully, we are both settled now and he has more support from other services.

 

MEMORIES IN NORWICH

A treasured memory of years gone by.

Oh, those days, with no responsibility, care-free, lovely days out to the seaside!  We had some great days out then.  Now that I live in Norwich it is great to go to Thorpe and always look for the seat that mum sat on – knitting – she was always knitting and she was very good at it too.  This was also where my brothers first started fishing.

A DAY TO REMEMBER…

Mother sat there knitting
By the riverside
We always stopped at Thorpe
When we went out for a drive

A drive down to the seaside
It really was a treat
And Mum would sit and knit
On that wooden seat

The seat down by the river
That I now live nearby
And when I see your picture
I breathe a heavy sigh

How I wish you were still here
To see the riverside
To see your wonderful grandchildren
And your grandson’s lovely bride

You left us all too quickly
In the blink of an eye
But I still have the memories
Of all those days gone by

We’d sit upon the beach
Shelling our hard-boiled eggs
And have a flask of tea
Before we bared our legs

Tuck our dress up for a paddle
Search for cockles and for crabs
Have a ride upon a donkey
Before we packed our bags

Then home again full of cheer
And stop at Thorpe for a nice cold beer!

Trish – 2001

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I came to Norwich because of my work at Norwich Union and spent many a lunch time in the old bus station café – people watching.

THE BUS STATION CAFÉ

At the bus station café
Many people call
Just who called in today?

The lady in the corner
Looks to me
As if she is a Secretary

Keeper of secrets old and new
Who does she look like to you?

The man in the cap
“A very nice chap”
A gentleman farmer maybe?

But what do YOU think…?
That’s what he looks like to me

Then there’s the Mum
With shopping galore
Her son’s come to meet her
Now she has more

More bags to carry
One, two, three…
A ‘MUM’ that’s who she looks like to me!

There’s a little old lady
“Don’t go so quick! – Take it easy my dear
Do use your stick!”
A granny – popped in for a cup of tea
That’s who she looks like to me!

Five girlie students
Future ‘go getters’
Out on a spree…
‘Girl Power’ groups they
Look like to me

The man at the back
In his ‘tatty’ rain Mac
Worked all his life
For his children and wife

Home every night
In time for tea…
A worker he looks like to me!

Two couples come in
Two old and two young
The old are quite serious
The young have some fun

The old couple worry
The young laugh, care‑free
Two couples in love they look like to me!

Then there’s the bloke
In his smart dark grey suit
An up and coming ‘exec’
Or on a sales recruit

He looks at his papers
Orders a roll and some tea
An ‘entrepreneur’ he looks like to me

I look at the pictures
I could sit and watch people
For hours and hours
Imagine their lives
And why they are here

Not all come for buses
That is quite clear

Some come in for a ‘fag’ and a chat
Like the worker I see
In his ‘tatty’ rain Mac

Then there’s the musicians
Who stand in the queue
Guitars in their hands
It’s clear what they do

Dark glasses hide eyes
People frightened to smile
Nobody dare say ‘how do you do?’
Nobody dare look – well would you?

And if you did – what would you see?
And what would you really think of me?

Trish – 2001